Finally. You're gone.

I've been under the most horrible stress for writing in this blog.  I've had people comment (not in the comment section conveniently placed below, oh no.  You never comment there, it would be a waste of your time apparently, because you could just tell me in person at the next family gathering.  So what's the point in putting it on the computer???  My pride.  That's why.  Being told in person that you're great is fine and all... but it's not permanent.  That's why I want you to put it in the comment section.  So I can use it against you next time I see you.)
Of course, that whole rant was just rendered useless, I now remember.  Because you, my dear relatives, no longer visit this blog, do you?
I can patient.  Patient as a snake.  Waiting in hiding.  That's what I've been doing, by the way.  Waiting to strike.
(All of this time I was not, for example, just being forgetful and lazy and not writing here because I considered it a waste of my time.  I was definitely not doing that.  *Cough, cough*)
I've out waited you for a very specific reason, you see.  Have you noticed that when I started blogging that the blogs were light hearted and fun all around?  And that as soon as my Bear mentioned this blog on facebook, and people actually started coming here that the blogs changed.  Perhaps some of you considered that to be just me, growing as a writer.  BUT IT WASN'T!!!
It was you!  You who pressured me and made me measure my words and work to write a good story!  But I have decided that I don't want to succumb to you and your "high expectations".
So, things will return to there usual rants and demands and paranoia.  Because this is the inside of my head that you're walking on and I will not let you change the landscape of my brain!  (It's a lovely blue color, btw, with huge majestic cliffs like the ones in Ireland, hot Italian boys, it has fluffy black kittens (black to represent my inner goth), cool Egyptian symbols, and adorable amine boys and foxes.  Maybe Japanese boy-fox hybrids.)
Anyway...
Now that I've gotten you out of the way I can talk about whatever I want to and say what I please.  Fuck.  Damn it.  Oh, yeah.  Potty-Mouth Super-Special-Awesome-Bryn-Powers ACTIVATE!!!
(Wow, now I really hope my Bear doesn't read this anytime soon...)
I've just gotten started about talking about how liberated I feel right now.  I can do anything because your not WATCHING!!!   *dissolves into hysterical laughter*  HAHAHAHAH!!!!!
I don't need you.
I don't need adoring fans (though I doubted you ever where adoring).
I don't need admiration and compliments.
I don't need your approval to keep writing.
I'll do as I please with out you.


I was lying to myself.  I do need you.
PLEASE COME BACK TO ME ADORING FANS!!!!